After many years of contemplation and recent influences involving self-reflection, happiness, and discovering who I truly am, I have decided to write a blog. This blog will chronicle my journey of what I hope to be self-revelation and an ending to self- sabotaging, which if you know me well, is a very common theme of my life.
In order to understand why I'm writing this blog, it is important (at least, for me) to explain why I deem myself a self-saboteur. Luckily, that is easily explained in the phrase, "I am my worst enemy." I constantly stand in my own way. I hold myself back, put myself down, wait until the last minute, or worst of all- neglect to do any action whatsoever. These traits are quite vexing, especially since I consider myself to be a pretty motivated person when all is said and done. Too further my belief, my family constantly tells me that I am the only one who holds myself back. My friends don't understand why I don't have any confidence. I could go on and on about the nice, motivating things people say about me or I could continue to outline all of my faults, but that's not what this blog is going to be about. What it is going to be about is my journey to self-love, self-reflection, happiness, and finding out just who I am and what I want.
One thing I do know: I want to live my life. After stealing the idea from a friend, I picked up the book The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin. Immediately, I felt as if she were writing about certain issues in my life. The fact that I feel like my life is passing me by, being one of them. Each day is short. I need to focus on doing and thinking about the things that make me happy- not nitpicking and complaining about every little thing that happens (I have a really bad habit of making small things seem catastrophic). Therefore, I have decided to make a change, despite how difficult I perceive it to be, and to embrace my life. Honestly, I'm already almost 25 years old and, while this might seem young, in reality, it is not.
So, how am I going to make these changes? Well, that is still in the works. What I can tell you is I will be using such guides as The Happiness Project by Gretchin Rubin, Zero Regrets by Apolo Ohno, John Wooden's Pyramid of Success, and a list by Todd Dirkin called 83 Ways to make 2011 Your Best Year Yet. I'm also going to throw in 12 Choices That Lead to Your Success by David Cottrell- yes, Dad, if you've been looking for this book I still have it. Sorry! Obviously, if I find anything else helpful or inspiring, I will be sure to add it in for good measure. Let's be real, I need all of the help and I can get.
For now, to end this already long post, I want to focus on discovering and detailing what makes me happy. My top priority happiness items that I have discovered so far are: animals (especially, but not limited to, my pets); reading books (and expanding my collection, even though going to the library would probably be more logical); singing (alone or with others); and holidays. Unfortunately, I don't believe that I can make a successful living (at least up to my standards) on these hobbies of happiness. However, that doesn't mean that they shouldn't be a large part of my daily life. Therefore, as pointed out by Mrs. Rubin in The Happiness Project, one theme that I am going to implement into my life is "look for happiness under your own roof." Luckily for me, I currently have a few furry, four-legged reasons to be happy living under my roof. I feel better already. :)
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